some days i wonder, that if I just disappeared randomly just without notice for a week..would you even notice? i really feel like just disappearing, just to get away from it all, everything thats going on, every thought that goes through my head and the endless stream of 'emotions'. Just leave everything behind for a week and have noone know. Would anyone care?

the hobbit soundtrack sounds so good :D <-- clearly going through another one of those phases...but who cares? My ears are in heaven :)

..quiet on the outside, imploding on the inside.

farewell 2012

A small reflection...in the past year, I can say a lot has happened, i'm out of high school, hsc, etcetcetc and the people around me have changed, the people around me have changed, and we survived the mayan apocalypse.

One of which was a 'rediscovered' friendship (and more)..you've become someone really dear and although we are going through a rough patch, I hope we'll push through it.. afterall, good things don't always come easily right?

and to my other friends, I've grown closer to some of  you which is really nice and i see a new side to you, others have been really close all along, especially the carlo-west crew :) 2 graduations together and 8-10years of schooling together and 6 years of some of my most memorable bus trips (honestly i miss catching the school bus just because it was so much fun -chendon included). and i guess there are a few of you who i've grown distant to nowadays, we can talk but i guess with everything around we just don't find the time to but I'm sure we'll bump into one another someday in uni and we can catch up  :D and to the new friends I made this year, I think you guys are part of one of my biggest regrets - to not have known you all better earlier.

i guess i realy just dedicated this post to the friends around me xD I dont have much to say but yeaa, HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

tired

seep late, wake late...should mean i'm kinda getting more hours of sleep than i have ever gotten...but idk why i'm still tired all the time. anyway its very weird posting these days, cos idk...i've gotten used to tumblr so much now and i guess sometmes a picture tells a thousand words haha xD I'm actually pretty glad not many people (if any) read my blog these days :) at least i can ramble and noone will know :P oh well...rambling done for today..in this really ceeeebs mood :(

Hobbit

The Hobbit was gooooood :D
no spoilers.
and omg Amazing Spiderman comics are finishing :( forever. :( oh wells I shall go buy the last issue (and yes natasha I'm going to buy just the last 3 issues!)
hmm...cant wait for next hobbit film and all the DC ones that are coming and flight and les miserables and ermagerd too many movies to watch. :( going to be broke before holidays are even over ><"

zuru zuru zuru zuru

I guess this is one of those less cheery posts...like those countless pictures dispersed my small moments of happiness on tumblr haha and thanks to the few people who've asked about me and kept me alive :) I wont name since some of you are 'anonymous'..but truly thanks for noticing :)
zuru zuru zuru zuru - i dont think many of you would know where this comes from or what movie I directly quote from...but much of my days can be described with it...the same things in and out of my head, the constant sleeping napping in the afternoon/evening to try and clear my head. I dont know what to think anymore, its always the same questions and thought, kinda really pestering nowadays..and I guess I am to blame but I'm trying and failing quite hard and I just have no idea what to do, think or say anymore, maybe its time to start digging deeper or maybe its just time to make a hard decision.

*if you're still searching..zuru zuru is the japanese onomatopoeia for dragging