the end draws near...

every year, we move up the high school ladder of seniority..and really each year, i havnt given that much of a damn about it, but friday was essentially the last time i'd be able to look and watch them leave. and this year was i guess in many ways much harder to let go of. I know so many people from yr12 of '11 and so many have helped me in one way or another...whether it was for notes, their past essays, maths lessons the night before exams, helping pull together a volleyball team or even just someone who i could rant to and someone i could ask questions about anything and everything when i needed to. From year seven i really thought some of you were jerks but as we aged i found that many of you werent who i really thought you were and valued you all...and some of you promised to visit, so you better =)

well, i guess its goodbye and thanks for all the support and stuff =) yhh and hopefully i didnt killl toooo many braincells of one particular ;D and goodluck for HSC =) byebye~


anyhows, i shall have to disappear =(

its over =)

yay so this is seemingly the last ramble on exams cos theres only music prac left but mehh xD anyhows, I would like to believe I didn't fail chem yesterday but something tells me otherwise but idc... its only year 11, right?

and ohhh, yesterday I realised a meter isnt as long as I thought it was =/ yhhhhh...

depressing

the more I think about these exams the more depressing I find them...physics was crap cos I fail and hence I'd be quite satisfied with a 70% (well, not really but I dont think ill even achieve a 70), maths and me dont mix very well and due to my stupidity I think I'll be happy with 70% for both 2u and 3u...no more about maths. ok so really the only subjects I essentially have any hope in is music and english. however, for a test out of 35, music doesn't look that great esp when one makes the mistake on key signature...fuarrrk! and yhh I'm pretty sure I lost another 3 marks...well there goes my 90%... and english well, I kinda prepared it the night before and winged it...so not looking great but I have hopes for a mid b to low a range essay =D and chem is tomoro and I'm absolutely fked so yhh. I'm depressed.

almost there...

so it seems like i'm nearly finished with all the exmas but what's left are the ones that are quite important and 2 of which i am going to potentially bogan fail. not joking.

this is what remains:
english adv
phys
adv maths
music theory
maths 3u
chem
music 2 prac

i am somewhat confident about music 2 prac exam which is quite abnormal...and in usual concurstances i would be rather happy...but the fact that i'm confident with it and i havn't been confident in sciences or maths makes me highly depressed. ok since i havnt exactly studied that much in the last two days...i think i should stop blabbering and go study instead. I have so much i want to spill but....later.

exams

exams are very gay
end of story.

ok, despite saying I will bomb English... wasnt kidding. a 2 hour combined lesson with my English buddy seemed effective to give me some direction. meaning I now have a thesis of sorts. a bunch of related quotes. 2 themes. an intro. ideas for the body. a very fluid and brisk plan. a well set mind. and no essay. I'm still screwed but hopefully not as screwed. and apologies to the english teacher who reads my essay... I'm sorry but you'll have to study through my ramble... ok I'm not sorry, so suck it up! =D and give me goood marks pleeeaaasssee! ;D

zomg...i hate exams

i have really been out of studting these weeks and whilst exams are looming in, with exams starting tomoro (well tuesday for me..but that's not the point) i have come to the conclusion i am going to actually fail a series of exams for once. I guess I'm not the only one who's having difficulties studying, after all...the last two sets of major exams at baulko were placed after a term break meaning we all had a week to chill then a week to cram...and although I (like many) complained about 'losing our holidays'..i now see how much benefit was gained from having extra study time. oh well...i should stop mindlessly rambling and study instead...

variety night

more like vocal night but oh well... it was ok, to me it felt like a night with way too many performances crammed in, not that many were great so it was quite dreary for most parts... but when there were good performances, they were quite smashing =D and band was pretty crap (as always) but I had to go after I skipped playing at prefect induction which resulted in getting threatened with having my 'head ripped into pieces' so yhh... yr12 finale was pretty good but some things could have been better but hey I shan't complain cos thats gunna be me in 12 months =( ohh, and good job sound team..for using 2 faulty mikes =) and uhmms, idk...it was a nice night since I got to have a nice chat to some old friends =) and spent the second half talking to another particular...it was a nice distraction from all the things on my mind.

and to those around me, things have happened and I apologise for being so snappy, moody, ignorant, and whatnot to you. I have a lot on my mind and I guess its just this accumulation of things that I dont say, that has crushed me slowly until recently when I just couldn't handle it and collapsed...its gunna take a while but I'll get to sort my mind out and be up on my feet soon. and thanks to those who know what's going on and putting up with me.. I'll make it up to all of you in the near future.

anyways, I shall stop dwelling on such thoughts, try and use the remaining days I have left to study where possible...

DONE!

it's late..but i have finished my english ext story =D yay! now since i have finished i think i will go to sleep despite having the knowledge how dodgy it will be cos i crammed in a longlong story into a short one...or as my tutor put it... an ext2-style idea in a veryvery short story ><"

oh wells, happy birthday to me!
goodnight~

lack of creativity

so my creative task for ext english is failing really hard. i am currently on 15% of story and 0% on reflection statement... couldnt they have given this to us like two weeks before and like made us hand it in two weeks earlier? fark....its coming up to exams and i'm actually panicking cos i havnt made much notes (and dont think i will anymore) and yhh...just really pissed off because i tend to have bursts of creativity but in the alst two weeks its kinda been held back by my fear of exams and so this story will seriously come out like crap and hence i shall follow my tutor's advice...write about 800 words and fthen fill out up with adjectives everywhere and changes simple short words into phrases =) how cheap but its what i have to do...and i now have to twist my statement to show that my story reflects an aspect cos i kinda deviated slightly majorly from my original semi-storyline. which means i'm not actually writing off my chosen aspect... yhh fuarrr....i'm screwed and i hate people who say "aren't you going to do 4u eng? so it should be easy for you then.." look, ext2 you get a year and that means plenty of creativity bursts this is two weeks and like just before exams therefore no creativity bursts...so yhh shush! =D anyhows, i have ranted and now i shall attempt to write more... ><"" more ranting later.
bye~

colours

hi, I know I havn't posted in a while... I've been busy and look exams are coming up..makes me sad

but oh wells...anyway, I'be had this on my mind for a while and need to get it out of my mind..

is my red your red? or in other words... are my colors the same as yours...what if your red was actually my green? =O but you've always known it as red =/ mindblown...ok I shall stop with my what if's and leave you to ponder =)

I'll post again later, in the meantime, I shall start my extension creative =( 1000 + 300 words to go TT_TT

Spring Fling

spring fling...

the first i've ever been to =) and was surprisingly good despite my late arrival due to a series of events. the fireworks were pretty nice and idk what else to say but the fact that i had fun ;) yhh

i'm tired.
time to sleep (or do ext ><")