to give or not to give

surely, every single one of us have, at some point, had to made this decision whilst catching public transport, in particular the train. to give or not to give a person asking for 'spare change to buy a ticket'.

it seems to me, that this is becoming rather prevalent and is leading me to believe that the generosity of society is being exploited. the clearest example I remember is when I was a the city, when a man of retirement age, walked up and asked me for change, in exchange he offered a cigarette... from his pockets which held packets (yes PACKETS) of cigarettes...i mean, how can you not have a 'couple of dollars' as he asked for and yet have in your possession a couple packets of smokes which each costs like 10/pack. so no, no money for you old man.

but I guess sometimes, when someone walks up and appears legtimately poor, I would consider giving but its becoming a decision quite biased in the 'no' direction because its really irritating to have people bug you all the way through the station. and look, seriously instead begging for money go earn some, especially those who are of relatively young age, because you can't beg for the rest of your life, go find a job and give back to society all they have given you.

yes, I'm talking to you man in the black shirt and jeans at Fairfield >=(

imaginary friends

so i ran out of ideas, so i just decided to carry on from my 'confession'

"Imaginary friends and imaginary companions are a psychological and social phenomenon where a friendship or other interpersonal relationship takes place in the imagination rather than external physical reality. Imaginary friends are fictional characters created for improvisational role-playing. They often have elaborate personalities and behaviors. They may seem real to their creators, though they are ultimately unreal, as shown by studies.

"A long-time popular misconception is that most children dismiss or forget the imaginary friend once they begin school and acquire real friends. According to one study, by the age of seven, sixty-five percent of children report that they have had an imaginary companion at some point in their lives. Some psychologists have suggested that children simply retain but stop speaking about imaginary friends, due to adult expectations and peer pressure. Still, some children report creating or maintaining imaginary friends as pre-teens or teenagers. Few adults report having imaginary friends. Dr. Benjamin Spock believed that imaginary friends past age four indicated that something was "lacking" in the child or his environment." " as quoted from wikipedia.

it reminds of my own youth, and how i too had an imaginary friend. i remember when i used to talk to him too and would actually share a conversation at times sometimes in my head and others out aloud. i used to be very quiet about it but looking back now...i think it was pretty awesome to have made such a friend.

i must admit it was an emotionally beneficial experience and one i cherish despite it only being 'imaginary' and unfortunately i must disagree with that Dr Stocks statement as an imaginary friend up until primary school seems to still be perfectly normal, sometimes it is better to have 'someone' to share yourself with especially if your from a single child family. Of course others take on other things to become their friends like their teddy bears, but afterall they still represent the same thing; a strong friendship that is hard to find in the real world.

10 Day Cahllenge: Day 10

finally i have had the time to complete this stupid thing...

Day 10: 1 confession

i really had to think about this one but really couldnt come up with anything that was not embarassing so i thought of this not really confession-like one but oh wells...

i used to have an imaginary friend =)

done!

news

according to wikipedia.."a folk etymology suggests that it is an acronym of the cardinal directions: North, East, West and South." all we know is..its called the news.

news is often known to quite boring..but often it is tragic, heroic, triumphant, and often touching however, one can learn a great deal, often trivial facts too =)

heres just one thing i found quite...uhmm, relevant in some ways to a certain person who gets a lot about her height =) hehehe... well here's something positive for once =)

there you go =) now, anyhows no other news to be found in the past papers newspaper other than lame stories and some billion pages on sport in particular nrl =.="

though today's paper and website news seems quite tragic... =( on a rather serious note, RIP victims of the Norway Massacre and Amy Winehouse =(

now, before i continue babbling about things, i shall leave cos i have an extension task to polish =) which begun and completed within 24hours of it being due =D last minute work ftw!

messy

messy - adj - the state of untidiness and disorder.

that is what my room is.

I simply have piles of things everywhere (except the floor cos I cleaned that in the hols) and yet when I come to packing it up, they all seem to be needed in the very near future and hence I keep them...it however has gotten to a disastrous point where I'm out of table space so now its become a routine if simply shifting things depending on what I do... if I do hw, then the piles move to my bed, when I sleep, they move back =D

such a waste of time though so I have effectively decided to sweep through my room slowly and clean it for good by hmm... week 5 =)

end of the holidays =(

so it seems these last two weeks have simply flown past and its back to school it is =( simply tragic. i have yet to complete so much work meaning i'll be overwhelmed very easily by oncoming homework ><"

and i'm still not mentally prepared for the fact that this actually is the last term of yr11...it seems more and more absurd but the reality is never what it appears to be =(

anyhows, short post. bye~

holidays todo list update

it is nearing the end of the holidays and i really have yet to complete my list ><" sigh, so much still to do =(

*Harry Potter =D
*massive calculus lesson with Shirley = massive braindrain =( and apparently accompanied by a cane  TT.TT
*physics home prac
                  - do prac  == but needs to redo =/
                  - write report <== writing
*lots of Truong hw
*ski trip =D yays!
*a minimum of 3000 situps =( need to lose my binge eating fats ==" [873/3000]
*plenty of sleep
*build a gundam     <== i doubt its going to happen...=( <== clearly not happening *sadface*
*crash Portia's to plan Games Night
*study lots of truong =(
      aka going through everything:
                  - mathematical induction
                  - trig
                  - and all of the calculus to date =(
*select hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*start hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*begin/complete music 2 essay
                  - devise an essay question
                  - pick my composer and pieces
                  - analyse piece <== though still one more to do =/
                  - gather findings
                  - write essay
                  - finish a draft
*writeup 5 chem/phys pracs Q.Q [0/5] <== i'm seriously screwed D=
*practice oboe at least 10 times [4/10] <== not happening
*do english ICT
                  - pick a self choosing text <== Death Becomes Her (1992)
                  - watch the movie
                  - find my partner (who appears to have died)  D= <== he really seems to have died ><"
                  - analyse it
                  - actually read my set text     <== i started =D 5 pages in....another billion to go ><"
                  - start compare/contrast of themes
                  - draft interview presentation
                  - make ICT component
*read othello ><" sparknotes ftw =)

yhh clearly i'm failing to accomplish what i set out to do =(

matcha cookies =)

hehehe...i got a random urge to bake earlier, so i did =) and it actually turned out pretty well =) and i reallly have nothing else to say so i'll just leave a photo or two and disappear.

there and i have yet to locate the other photos, so another time =)

it feels good to be home

truly.. after an extremely long ride on the coach, it really feels good to be home again with a really sore neck from sleeping retardedly and just a really sore me from skiing =) but must say I had lots of fun in the snow =D

...and I dont feel like writing more so off to pack up, shower then sleep~

homewards

well.. it seems I'm on my way home =/ though I'm not exactly sad or happy about it =/ all I know is I'm in a very rambly mood, very fidgety and kinda annoyed mood cos I have a minimum 5 hour trip on the coach if there are no traffic jams =( yhh, I really feel like rambling on and on but thats just gunna bore you out.. so I'll go amuse myself somehow =/

the snow

is white and fun xD

hmm...had a really fun day skiing at perisher =) and despite it being holidays, the snowfield was still relatively empty compared to the past =)

anyhows being the asian I am, when we got there I went for the lift with the shortest queue...obv not the smartest decision cos it was actually one of the harder tracks and I hadn't skied for like 2 years.. yhh, I ended bowling over and then twisting my leg, losing both skis then swipe another 10 or so metres on my back ><" luckily a really nice lady picked it all up and gave it to me before I even got up =D yhh, then pretty much spent the rest of the day skiing elsewhere x) and had cup noodles for lunch cos we're cheap and didn't want to buy food at extremely high prices xD

yhh, now I'm just limping around cos my leg is corked from my interesting fall and I kinda ignored it for a whole day =/

nonetheless, still looking forward to tomorrow =D

ciao~

p.s. it all ends tomorrow =D + D=

on the way to the snow =)

it seems like it'll be a long day.. even though I'm on the way to the snow, it seems I'm going to be holed up in Canberra on a coach for another 2 hours cos thats how long its gunna take till we get there... unfortunately, a coach we're traveling with broke down so we kinda stopped as well.. which really makes no sense considering how that coach is actually another tour... and really theres nothing we can really do... oh wells, I kinda promised Shirley that I'd finish my music essay draft but my rents wont let me work on it on the coach so yhh =(

anyhow, looking forward to the snow tomorrow =D

10 Day Challenge: Day 7, 8, and 9

ok seriously will just pass day 7/8 cos if i do it as it was requested to be done, i think i shall never ever touch my blog again.


Day 7: 4 turn offs
Day 8: 3 turn ons 
Day 9: 2 smileys that describe your life right now


=D, <3


yay, done~

skiing! =D

ohh, it seems i forgot to announce tell the world about it...but yes, i'm going skiing tomoro =D for 3 days =) yhh, ok nothing else to say because i shall post via my phone if i have time so nothing else to say...yh ok xD maybe i should start packing stuff....or i could leave it till midnight as i always do =D

yet another holiday to-do list update

its already halfway through the holidays and hmms my list still looks pretty bad =/

*Harry Potter =D
*massive calculus lesson with Shirley = massive braindrain =( and apparently accompanied by a cane  TT.TT
*physics home prac
                  - do prac <== but needs to redo =/
                  - write report
*lots of Truong hw
*ski trip =D yays!
*a minimum of 3000 situps =( need to lose my binge eating fats ==" [650/3000]
*plenty of sleep
*build a gundam     <== i doubt its going to happen...=(
*crash Portia's to plan Games Night
*study lots of truong =(
      aka going through everything:
                  - mathematical induction
                  - trig
                  - and all of the calculus to date =(
*select hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*start hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*begin/complete music 2 essay
                  - devise an essay question
                  - pick my composer and pieces
                  - analyse pieces
                  - gather findings
                  - write essay
                  - finish a draft
*writeup 5 chem/phys pracs Q.Q [0/5]
*practice oboe at least 10 times [4/10]
*do english ICT
                  - pick a self choosing text <== Death Becomes Her (1992)
                  - watch the movie
                  - find my partner (who appears to have died)  D=
                  - analyse it
                  - actually read my set text     <== i started =D 5 pages in....another billion to go ><"
                  - start compare/contrast of themes
                  - draft interview presentation
                  - make ICT component

that's it...yhh, not that many have been completed =(

new blogger in draft look =/

so it seems google has finally decided to make a move on with their "in draft" projects..quite noticeable in blogger. well, its first impressions are good, its a contemporary clean and not cluttered up look as compared to the original one.
Heres the original one:

and the new draft look:

but as most people say...first impressions are simply first impressions....when you get to the post page, it feels extremely empty, white and rather blank...the designs up the top and sidebar is pretty neat but the rest of the page (like 90% of what you see is simply blank) not cool.
The old one which still looks rather drabby but at least its more filled:

The new draft:

but i guess overall, draft still wins over after you start writing and that tiny box starts expanding over the page =) and once you post, its seems that draft will get better overall...
Old posts list:

then neat new one:

overall verdict: draft  =)

maths =)

for once I'm actually associating mathematics with a smile =)

sounds silly, but I sat through tutoring this morning... which went surprisingly quickly... got home and slept for two hours xD then woke up and revised heaps of maths =) then somehow progressed to doing tutoring hw, of which I have now completed 80% of =D

never thought maths could make me feel as good as it did in primary =)

10 Day Challenge: Day 6

ehehehe...after delaying this for so long...i shall attempt finish it off =)

Day 6... 5 people who mean a lot (in no particular order)

my grandmother =)
my mum
my dad
my sister
and last of all, a special girl who i shall not name since most know who it is ;D

that wasnt too hard =/

recount of today...

so earlier in the arvo I went over to  year 12's house to practice his hsc piano duet composition in preparation for a recording for hsc submission... it went rather well but I was pretty awful cos I sight read the whole thing =/ sorry martin! but not to worry, as of tonight I shall practice it hard since I havnt played on my piano properly in the past week =/ well... that is... if I ever get home =.=" while I was out my mum decided to go an hour early to go pick my sister up from castle cove or someplace out in the north..and so when I got home noone was there and hence I walked to Westfield as there was nothing I could do cos I dont have keys..well, thats where i've been since 4pm == its now 6.40pm..and if you think great.. its a Thursday and you're at westfield.. not so bad right? well think again... I'm talking about north rocks westfield... the massive smallest hole of a westfield and I'm guessing most people have never even been inside... so compare it to carlo court (which isn't that great either) but 2 billion times more crap...
yhh, wasted (and still wasting) over two and a half hours of my holidays/life sitting in a hole ><"

games night planning day

twas fun =)

there were 5 dogs there too....2 of which farted many times...not cool
but many things got done..i think and then there was the wii =) hehehe...and no i ceebs to write anymore =) i think our hard work will be reflected at the awesome Games Night 2011 =) hehehe..ok shushnow cos i'm simple rambling on about nothing =/

Baking Stuff

Heh...my dad is absolutely not normal...he's demanded i bake food almost every night ><" and most of which dont exactly come out well...maybe cos i add too many extra things in =S

So far:
Apple Cake
SEMIFAIL (my dad kinda took the cake out of the oven before it was done simply because the top looked done (probably cos i added a layer of sugar on top) and started eating it even though it had only been in the oven for 15 of the 40 minutes, then he started eating from the top cos he's cool and halfway down it turned into goo...that's when he believed me that it wasnt done... and hence this cake kinda went weird but tasted very nice when i finally got cooked)

Shortbread Cookies
SUCCESS (this was too easy though...so simple oh wells came out nicely)

Matcha Chiffon Cake

FAIL & SUCCESS (why both? well, i poured it into the bigger cake tin and kinda filled it up then had some remaining and chucked it into a smaller one =) yhh small one came out nicely =) and yhh tasted nice then the big one took ages and my sister being the troll she is turned the temperature to 250°c yhh.....it just flopped after that..)

and hmm there are photos i think but they can wait =)

updated holiday plans

i have since thought of more things to do and shall also continue to update my progress at each task =)

*Harry Potter =D
*massive calculus lesson with Shirley = massive braindrain =( and apparently accompanied by a cane  TT.TT + physics thing
*lots of Truong hw
*apparently my rents are arranging a ski trip =D yays!
*a minimum of 3000 situps =( need to lose my binge eating fats ==" [250/3000]
*plenty of sleep
*build a gundam     <== i doubt its going to happen...=(
*crash Portia's to plan Games Night
*study lots of truong =(
      aka going through everything:
                  - mathematical induction
                  - trig
                  - and all of the calculus to date =(
*select hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*start hsc music 2 performance repertoire
*begin/complete music 2 essay
                  - devise an essay question
                  - pick my composer and pices
                  - analyse pieces
                  - gather findings
                  - write essay
                  - finish a draft
*writeup 5 chem/phys pracs Q.Q
*practice oboe at least 10 times [1/10]
*do english ICT
                  - pick a self choosing text <== Death Becomes Her (1992)
                  - find my partner (who appears to have died)  D=
                  - analyse it
                  - actually read my set text     <== i started =D 5 pages in....another billion to go ><"
                  - start compare/contrast of themes
                  - draft interview presentation
                  - make ICT component


i swear i had something else on mind....but clearly i've forgotten D=

study mood...

dont you love it when you're in a study mood...though having said that...my study mood is quite badly timed since i cant exactly study when i'm waiting for notes in one thing, and waiting for some form of response to now my partner isnt dead for extension ICT =.= so i guess even though i'm in a studious mood i' have yet to achieve anything today... well...sorta... i found a very nice cake recipe and was gunna bake that instead...but when i got to the kitchen my mum had kinda unpacked all the cupboards and piled them everywhere as she sorted through and repacked everything...so that too failed to happen. So the only thing i really managed to get done was...sleep =/  yhh, i kinda slept til 12 =.= after watching nadal lose wimbledon =( not cool...... yhh

things achieved today: played piano (most of which was really just for fun and/or lols)
:. fail.

stupid bird!

just literally two minutes ago..some stupid drunk kookaburra flew into the fence of my backyard... it was 'laughing' when it flew straight into the fence then stopped laughing...then i laughed before it got up and flew away again =) silly bird!

dont know how it happened..

seriously do not know how this manage to happen or how i even got into the mindset of doing this...but believe it not, i actually managed to study for 6 hours today...and not just plain study, it was maths study too =) i managed to teach myself the whole of mathematical induction with the aid of a friend's notes + excel textbook =) and yhh, i went through everything i could cram in...however, i highly doubt such another seesion will exist.

ohh truong 4u class lists went up today =) and i'm not on it =) i'm happy i do not had never intended to do 4u maths...though english is a slightly different story =D ohh, then in class, he said everyone in the accel class but two people was on the list.. ehehehe! oopsies!

plans for holidays

with the start of the holidays..i thought it would be appropriate to compile a list of what i shall/will/must/have considered/will attempt/fail to do in the holidays.

Here goes:
*Harry Potter =D
*massive calculus lesson with Shirley = massive braindrain =( and apparently accompanied by a cane  TT.TT + physics thing
*lots of Truong hw
*apparently my rents are arranging a ski trip =D yays!
*a minimum of 3000 situps =( need to lose my binge eating fats ><"
*plenty of sleep
*build a gundam
*crash Portia's to plan Games Night
*study lots of truong =(
*select and start hsc music performance repertoire
*begin/complete music 2 essay
*writeup 5 chem/phys pracs Q.Q
*practice oboe at least 10 times

this list may/may not be added to in the near future and hence does not cover everything.

failed maths

yhh, that ^ sums it all up... no more to be said... very depressing...

on a slightly brighter note, got my english 2u rank and quite liked it =D

but yes...i frikken hate maths.. the reason I'm still up this late.. is maths ==" and sorry to all the people i've ranted about maths to..especially Shirley. but I seriously hate maths ><"

white hair

D= I'm so old...so much white hair... like seriously I pulled out like 10 a while ago and it actually is really tiring to hold your arms above your head for more than 5 minutes at a time...
ohh and to those who say..for every white hair you pluck, you'll grow 5 or whatever number more.. well, shush cos I dont believe you nor do I intend to listen to those beliefs unless you can link some research done that can prove this... =D