damn truong hw =.=

this marks the 7th consecutive friday night/saturday morning where i've stayed up past 12 doing truong hw...and half of those weeks I never actually completed all of it.. and today is one...
my biggest regret in life, signing that netbook charter thing.. and refusing to go maths tutoring after selective TT.TT these two decisions marked the demise of me =( so...to all the carlo west kiddies parents, I think its time you all knew how dumb I am at maths now, rather than seeing me as the primary school kid who did extremely well in maths as most still do... as much as I wish I could still be someone to live up to those beliefs/views, its time to see me as the fail maths kid cos everytime one such remark is made, I can only think of how much of a lie/misconception that is. when rebuked, I get that same response, "oh, it must be a one off" or "you'll ace the next one"... if only it was a simple as that =( and even though I do go tutoring, one must realise how by starting tutoring at the end of year 10 means i've missed a lot of stuff (in particular, the teachings of advanced parts and methods of 'easy' topics) and now on these 'harder' topics aka calculus, I'm completely lost when we're doing logs cos Truong uses random formulae or something on the log and I'm sitting there very lost ><" sigh~ this is the painful life of me, a fail maths kid =(